IMPORTANT TO EVERYONE 10/21/2007

Somehow, someone has been following me around the newsgroups using my

name and e-mail address saying that I said this post is a joke and

anyone reading it is an idiot.
I ASSURE YOU THIS IS NO

JOKE.

1/22/06 (today 10/21/07)
I wrote the following about 17 years ago and posted it in a

number of different newsgroups. I posted it again about six years ago.

Many people were interested because they had gone thru similar

experiences. I have received 100's of e-mails and tried to answer most.

I am still in contact with many. It's amazing how many people are going

thru similar troubles, especially the youth all over the planet.
I am sorry this is so long, but so much has happened since 1989.
I posted this on 3/23/90 and again on 7/14/2000 and again today on

10/24/2007.

In 1989 I was hit by a car. After three operations and still

being in severe pain and the loss of my business and then my family I

could take no more. So I took an overdose of drugs, enough to kill an

elephant. I was found on the sidewalk in San Francisco, by a Priest.
I was pronounced DOA (dead on arrival) at the San Francisco

general hospital. They said I was dead for almost two minutes.
I remember this like it was yesterday.
I was in total darkness. I could see nothing, like as if I had no

eyes. Just TOTAL black darkness. I felt like I was standing in this

darkness. I tried to touch my face, but it was not there, I reached

down to touch my legs but I could feel no arms or legs.
That was when I realized I was DEAD. I remembered what I had done

to myself.
That was why I could not feel my body. I was in this darkness with

nothing but my thoughts for what seemed like forever.
I remember thinking about my entire life and that this would be a

HORRABLE death, to have nothing but your thoughts for eternity, a true

hell.
Although. I was in no pain, I was not scared and I felt nothing

but total calmness. I was at peace. (I now believe this darkness is

what happens to someone in a Coma)
Then all of a sudden I saw a light, a bright light. I felt myself

moving up towards this bright light. As I was moving upward I could see

down. I saw Doctors and Nurses working on someone on a table, although

I could not see my face I knew it was me they were working on.
I just kept rising up through the building thru the roof and into

the sky.
I heard a voice talking to me. It told me I had to go back because

I was needed. I tried to ask why but no sound would come from my mouth.

I could only listen.
The next thing I knew I was looking down at a great storm on the

earth somewhere. Trees, homes, buildings and people were being

destroyed. It was so real and like nothing I had ever seen.
At that time the voice told me that soon there would be great

storms all over the world. As I watched, the voice said there would be

great Earthquakes, Tsunamis, Floods, Tornados, Hurricanes, Volcanic

Eruptions and Deadly Viruses. The Earth would change rapidly.
As the voice talked I saw all of these things happening. My heart

was so sore I could feel nothing but burning sadness. I could not stand

watching all this destruction and death. Then I started floating down

to earth. I stood in the middle of an intersection. There were people

dead and dying all around me. Some buildings were destroyed but most

just had windows broken out.
I sensed these people all around me were dying of virus, thirst

and starvation. Many had their skin and hair falling off their bodies.

The voice said there would be great famines, natural disasters and

viruses that would wipe out more than two thirds of the life on earth

and then finally a great war that would be the most horrible war of all

wars.
This world war will be caused by the great losses of life from the

wrath of Mother Nature. Countries will fight over fresh water, food and

other needed human resources.
I could not stand to watch this. My heart was aching and I could

not stop the rush of tears.
The last thing the voice said is that I was needed to help these

people. And therefore I could not kill myself. I am not a religious

person and could not imagine helping anyone as I am quite disabled

myself. Then again as I know only too well, fear and your mind can make

you do amazing things.
The last thing the voice told me is that the beginning of the end

will be in 2006 and everything as we know will be gone by the end of

2012. I believe the voice was female.
The next thing I knew I was back in the total darkness again

thinking about all that I had just seen and been told.
When I awoke, I was in the hospital. I was very upset because I was

still alive.

Could anyone out there tell me if they have recently gone thru

anything like this? And/or what you think about this?
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7/14/2000

It seems that in the past 15 years nearly everything I experienced

has been coming true.
The earthquakes, floods, tsunamis, tornados, hurricanes, volcanic

eruptions and new deadly viruses and diseases.
In the past 20 years there are at least 10 new viruses most of

which are from the upset and destruction of our ecosystems. (Including

space, volcanoes. and, rain forests)
Temperatures are rising all over the planet, 4 times faster than

scientists predicted just 10 years ago. This is causing the poles to

melt at an alarming rate. Earths glaciers are melting; fish in our

Oceans are confused because the Ocean temperatures are getting warmer.

Even many land animals are confused and disappearing. Plant life is

changing, on the East coast flowers bloomed until February of 2006

which was the warmest year ever recorded
Two thirds of the earths fresh water comes from the glaciers, of

which are melting into the salt water oceans. Our fresh water lakes and

streams are being polluted by Human activity and by acid rain. 90% of

the large fish are already gone from our oceans. Animal species are

mysteriously disappearing all over the planet. As frogs disappear

viruses are spreading rapidly with a vengeance. Over 40% of frog

species are already gone. (This info is from Discover magazine).

Mosquitoes are ramped and infected all over the planet. Aids, Mrsa,

cancers and many other diseases are spreading quickly. Nearly everyone

knows someone who has died or dying of these diseases,

Because of Global Warming from the Greenhouse effect, the Earths

tectonic plates are expanding. This is causing more earthquakes and

tsunamis, and is causing extreme pressure on the planets surface. In

return Volcanoes are starting to wake and erupt to release this

pressure.
Areas like the North and South Americas will become much warmer

while Europe will become much colder making it impossible to grow

crops.
We are all being told global warming is from Carbon Dioxide from

our homes and automobiles, when in fact just one live volcano (and it

don't have to be active) gives off more carbon dioxide than all the

cars in the world. We are being told this because large government's

don't want third world countries using our Fossil fuels, because we are

running out of these fuels.
The Earth is getting hotter because of our Sun. Earth is now in an

orbit that is bringing us closer to our sun, which happens about every

300 and 50 thousand years. We do not know exactly what will happen

because we were not here 300 and 50 thousand years ago. But Science

tells us that 300 and 50 thousand years ago a global disaster caused a

mass destruction.
This destruction is inevitable and there is NOTHING we can do

about it. 2006 was the warmest year ever recorded. 2007? We don't know

yet. But I'm sure it will be even warmer and dryer in many areas.

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About Myself:

Since I was a child I have had a sort of 6th since. I seem to

know when bad things are going to happen but unfortunately most of the

time I don't know what is going to happen, only that it is going to be

something bad.
My mom has told me that when she was younger it used to happen to

her a lot too. She would know when someone was in trouble and she would

call them to find out what was wrong Shocking the hell out of them. She

even did it to me a couple of times.

If you ask your children or friends and neighbors or search around

on the internet, you will find that more and more people especially the

young are sensing something is wrong. If it be from listening to the

news, or their daydreams, their anxiety attacks, their nightmares or

just plane heart felt feelings. They know something is going to happen

soon.
As for myself I take medications for extreme anxiety (that is what

the Doctors call it) and to keep me from dreaming because I have the

same nightmares over and over. And they are always about disasters that

mostly come true, especially if I have the same dream three or more

nights in a row.
I can tell you many things that have happened to me thru out my

entire life that would seem unbelievable .Thru my 53 years, I should

have died at least 5 times. But because of this feeling I get (that the

Doctors call anxiety) I have been able to avoid death (unfortunately).

To try to make a very long story short, right now I will just tell

you of one major incident.
My best friend in San Francisco wanted me to visit him, I could not

afford it but he was willing to pay for it. Because I am disabled I

have nothing but time. So when he asked when I could come there, I told

him it didn't matter, just set it up for any time.
He set me up on Flight 93 at about 9am on 9/11/2001...

When he e-mailed me my itinerary, I started shaking. I was sick

for weeks. I was having what the doctors referred to as Anxiety attacks

(but I know better). The closer it got to my flight the worse I got. So

I knew my flight was going to crash.

I was so ill I was throwing up almost daily. Finally about a week

before the flight I called my friend and asked if he would change me to

a later flight. He did, he changed it to about 1pm on 9/11.
After which I felt much better, but I was still getting these fear

attacks. So I still knew something bad was going to happen. I made out

my will and wrote letters saying good by to my kids and family.
Just as my sisters were ready to take me to the Newark airport the

twin towers were hit. Then when I heard that Flight 93 went down, I

lost it. I was hysterical for days. I felt that some healthy person or

a child or someone who cared about their life was in my seat. Or if I

had been on that plane it would not have gone down.

These things have been happening to me ALL of my life. I hate it and

I have a lot of trouble dealing with it. It seems since my accident it

has gotten stronger. I guess it could also be because I have so much

depressed time on my hands.
So on the night of February 02 I could not take any more. So much

was built up in my head. From the pain and guilt to nightmares and

these so called anxiety attacks. Knowing that everything is going to

end, I was literally scared to death. I know that my family and friends

are going to die, and I don't want to be here to see it.
So I planed my suicide again, I had everything figured out, so I

thought. I almost made it.
But for some freaky reason my mom called my house because she felt

something was wrong, but she got no answer, So she called my sister who

came to my apartment and found me.
My mom NEVER calls me at night. Just another hour or so and I would

have been gone.

I do not remember anything about being in the regular hospital,

although I was there for almost 2 weeks. I was in a coma for 2 days.

And again I was back in that total DARKNESS. I went thru almost exactly

what I went through the first time I tried to kill myself. The only

difference is that I don't remember it as vividly. What I do remember

is the voice saying that the end will start in 2006 and by 2012 nearly

all life on Earth will be gone by the end of 2012. The military draft

will be reinstated. This I feel VERY, VERY Sure of.
Just writing this makes me want to die, as I am so sure I will

live thru the hell to come.
There is only one thing I remember when I was supposedly awake in

the hospital. And I remember it VERY well. There was a guy that was in

the bed next to me in my room. He kept mumbling something. I turned on

my side and leaned up on my elbow to see and try to understand what he

was saying.. I could see this guy in his bed just staring at the

ceiling. He was younger than me; I would say he was in his 30s. He had

long hair and long beard. However he was not mumbling, he was praying.

He called me by my name and told me I had to stop doing this because my

help is needed. He told me suicide is not a way out for me.

The next morning I told my family about this guy in the other bed

and I told them what he had told me. My family informed me I never had

a roommate; I was in a private room. I could not believe this. It was

just way to vivid in my mind. I looked around the room and sure enough

there was no other bed. And there was no room for a second bed. That

did not convince me. I actually had to call the Nurse and ask her. And

she also told me that I was in a private room, there was never another

bed in my room. Because I tried to take my own life the nurse had to

sit next to my bed the entire time I was in the hospital. I do not

remember her at all. I do not remember anything except this roommate.
What am I supposed to think of all this?
I am worse now (the start of 2006) than I have ever been. I am on

all kinds of drugs. I am on Opiates for pain, meds for sleeping,

depression and anxiety and to keep me from dreaming.
With all these drugs I am having trouble remembering and I have

trouble concentrating on any one thing too long.
Although I am no longer having nightmares every night, I am still

having them about once a week. These nightmares are always about DEATH

mostly from Natural Disasters. I am also still having these so called

anxiety attacks, always before something bad happens.

I have been seeing a psych doctor about every 3 weeks since my

last suicide attempt. He truly believes that I do have some type of 6th

sense. I have proved to him that when I have these attacks, some

Natural Disaster happens within a few days to a week the stronger my

attack the worse the disaster.
I can't stand it. And I still want to die now more than ever. And

the odd thing is I don't know why I feel so eager to die. I know I will

get so bad that I will try suicide again. Although something inside me

keeps saying "wait till things get real bad". "Wait till I can witness

the destruction to come". But I've already seen it and I don't want to

live it. I'm already planning.

Most of us just go on about our lives without much thought about

what is going on in the rest of the world. Yes we hear in the news when

something bad happens (Like the floods, tsunamis, hurricanes, viruses

and volcanic eruptions) and then most of us just push it out of our

minds and go on with our lives. What else can you do! Now the news

stations keep these reports to a minimum. Fridays seem to be the best

time to get the real news.

Your truth about God or Jesus is according to which religion you

follow.
As for myself, I don't know if there is a God. But if there is, I

don't believe he made man. I believe he made the Universe because

everything seems so perfect. It's a little hard to believe that the

miracle of all life and everything else is just by chance. Things just

go together way too perfectly. It is more likely that God made Mother

Nature and Mother Nature made man and all earthly life, many times

over.
My biggest problem with God was Dinosaurs since I was a little

kid. Why would Nature make Dinosaurs? Not long ago I woke up and the

answer was in my head. I knew why. If Nature has a big plan Humans

needed Dinosaurs. Nature knew we would need fossil fuels?

As we know, Nature has nearly wiped out everything and started all

over again a number of times. And it is happening again NOW.
I believe in Mother Nature. And she has learned that Humans are a

VIRUS, destroying all she has made. So she will she wipe us out and

start all over again. Perhaps next time she will make something a bit

more perfect something that will enhance nature and not destroy it.

I don't know exactly why I am writing this, I just feel

compelled. Perhaps that is what I'm still here for. If I can spread

this message enough maybe I can Move on to what ever, if anything there

is after this life. You should know what is going on. As I'm sure our

top Scientists already know. Although there is really nothing you can

do. Perhaps, if prepared, some people might make it thru this.
I just don't know.
I feel scared and at this moment, suicidal again.
I don't know what to do.
Right now my life has reached one of its lowest points and I feel I

don't care anymore.

I just don't know. I leave it for you to decide, it's your world.

I am just trying to explain what I know, what I feel in my heart and

soul and what I have been going through.
In a number of recent dreams I've been told to start filling up

containers with fresh water and start collecting canned foods. And what

I don't understand, the truth about UFO's will be revealed soon.

Personally I don't believe in UFO's so this I don't understand. Don't

know exactly why, but I assume something bad is just around the corner.
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Good Luck to You all.....Any responses should be

sent to this e-mail address I will try to answer as

many as possible. Threatening or idiot mail will be deleted. Thanks,

Michael